An Out of Place Mind

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I always forget,

To be kind to myself. I forget that I am working through the trenches of life right now and there’s a lot that I have on my plate. I forget to put effort into my relationships.

And I forget to give myself the space to be able to simply, breathe.

I continue to try and keep myself running at 100% all the time during these times and I start to burn myself out, which makes me feel like I need to start all over again then.

I haven’t found the time to stop these past few weeks and I can feel it hitting me now. Constantly running around, taking care of the basic things to make my life easier on a daily basis, except for the things in my head.

I shouldn’t be angry with myself for not getting something done when it can be taken care of the next day. I shouldn’t hold it over my own head, letting it eat at me until it actually gets done.

  • Get the dishes done

  • Do laundry

  • Make sure everyone else around is taken care of

  • Overwork yourself until you feel like you have no energy left

    Just be kind to yourself.

    I’ve learned a lot about myself the past few months and there’s still so much left to learn. I am learning how to give myself the room to breathe, how to place boundaries and actually keep them up, and how to love myself in times where I feel like I don’t deserve it at all.

    I’m still learning. I struggle every day to keep my head above water.

    There’s a small part of me that wants to scream into the open air just asking for some room to breathe, but sometimes we just have to take it and push through it and make the best of what we can and what we know.

    So, I’ll continue to remind myself.

    Be kind to yourself

    And something will blossom from that point.

    -K.